Wednesday, March 29, 2006
My CAT presentation is over. walalalalalala. Hahahha... Yishan is now going crazy with joy. The professor was actually quite pleased with the project. She said she was impressed by the project. Hahahha... nope. The system wasn't impressive. It's just that we only had 2 weeks to work on it, so erm... as long as you actually have a decent system at the end of the 2 weeks. It's not too bad already.
But of cos, i'm happy not just because of that. It's because i suddenly realised how not alone i am in this world. So actually people DO care. It's really quite touching you know? Never knew so many people actually read my blog. Hahaha... Esp you Dodo. You knowing my blog add and reading it came as quite a shock. Hhahaha... And Dodo, I MISS YOU!!! I wanna be back in year 1 doing LTB with you guys again.
Anyway, now i shall take the chance to thank a few sweeties. Hahahah...
WanZhen: Thanks for listening to me whine. Thanks also for passing me tissue/consoling me when i was sobbing away yesterday in SR 5.1. And of cos the biggest thanks goes to you for bitching with me about u-noe-who. -grinz-
Ryan: Thanks for acting as the big bro and helping me curse those project group mates of mine. =P
Aud dear: Thanks for listening to me whine and staying late with me in school these few days. Really enjoyed your company though i didn't get much time to be with you alone.
Shorn: Thanks for being a sweetie. Hahahha... Ok... mabbe i shld change my nick for you. Can stop calling you evil. =P
Stanley: Hahahah... i never knew you could be so sweet. Really didn't expect you to care. Was really quite touched when you came over to ask me about the progress of the report.
Don: Hhahaha... thanks for helping to cheer me up. Going to Curry Favour with you guys was a really good idea. I felt so much better after that.
Jie mei: thanks for chatting with me on msn after the quarrel i had with my project group mate. It helped to calm me down a lot.
Sharon babe: thanks for cheering me on just before my presentation. Like what you predicted, it turned out ok. =)
Cass darling: Thanks for the morning call at 3.30am. Sorry i hung up on you. =P
To all those whom i may have missed out: Thanks for the support. The worst is now over. Dun worry. Yeesh won't be breaking down anymore in these few weeks.
YYY
街灯绊住我眼前
下一步
拉长的影子
嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡
原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹
说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡
YYY
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Had a huge screaming match with my CAT project group mate just not too long ago. Shocked Ryan, Kenny and my dear totally. My poor dear. First time she's studying with me in SMU then she get to see screaming match and the ugly side of Yeesh already. But then, I seriously dunno how anyone can actually work with someone like him. Someone so idealistic. He seriously think with this *snaps fingers* means the whole system will be up and running? Fine. He's not the IS guy around so he doesn't know the difficulties of doing coding. But still, stop being so demanding. The IS guy in the group is not slacking k? He is working till 5/6am in the morning to write all the codes necessary. It's not easy on him.
He really needs to stop walking into the room and demanding that things be done the way he wants it. I know. He's coming from a business manager perspective. But still, we are doing a CAT project. In this project, we are all NOT business managers k? So quit coming into meetings demanding that things be done when you are not doing it!!!
This has gotta be the greatest clash between me and any project mate since the start of my SMU project life. Most of my project group mates are okay, if not, even happy with working with me. Even this semester, when my work is no longer as good as in the past, they are okay with working with me. Working with me is easy. I really don't ask for much. As long as you produce decent work, i'm fine. Even if i have to edit your part like crazy after you've put in effort, i'm fine. But at the very least, produce SOMETHING?
This particular group mate who actually made me so pissed that i had to scream at him? He doesn't do anything. No, not cos he is slack. He is very enthusiastic. But then he is over zealous. He keeps pushing people to work when it is not possible to do work at all. There are limitations in real life can?
In real life, fairy godmothers do not exist and even if they do, they cannot turn pumpkins into carriages just liddat *snaps finger*. Even my 5 year old darling Shimone knows that. She knows that she has to work for things and that if she wants a favour from anyone, she's gotta be guai and prove to the other person that she deserves the extra long bedtime story/hide n seek game/extra long tv time/a big hug.
So friend, quit walking into meetings demanding things. Show me that you took into consideration how things work in real life before you even demand for anything. And oh yeah... just in case you haven't realised. There are many things in life that you don't get just by demanding. You actually need to EARN them.
YYY
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
What flower represents you?
Clean and simple, and so pretty, you are a DAISY. You're neither a rebel nor a conformist, you just go where you go and everyone else can make of that what they will. You don't like a lot of fuss, and you're not high maintenance, but you do have firm standards and no time for people or things that fail to live up to them. You're traditional, but modern things do not intimidate you, and sometimes you even skate along the edge of a trend, too, and do it quite nicely. You don't try that hard to make people like you, but they do. You fit everywhere.
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YYY
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Didn't wanna start the post with some form of bitching but I really badly wanted to blog and blogger had to be down. $#@^%$&%* What a nice time. Now I know why my dearest babe actually switched to wordpress. Maybe I should go there as well. Afterall, too many people now know my blog add. It's now quite unsafe to be blogging.
Anyway, today's the birthday of dearest Huiwen. She's gotta be the oldest friend I have. Hahahah... I've known her since the beginning of time. Well, this naughty girl who's always asking me to update her about my love life got herself attached 6 months ago and I just found out like a few days ago. Win lorh… ask me to update you then you TTMM(偷偷摸摸). And oh well, the most ultimate part is this. She's attached to my primary school classmate. (-__-)"
We were messaging for a while and then she popped the question. Hahah… "So how about you? Got updates?" Haiyoh...what is it with the people around me? I don't think I'm being overly sensitive. People around me are indeed getting very interested in my love life recently. My uncle's been having "talks" with me. Hahahh...talks about how I should concentrate on my studies and getting myself a bf. My parents have been dropping hints. Like: "Girl, a woman shouldn't be too headstrong. And being a 女强人 is not good. They have to go through a lot of pain alone."
Haiyoh...they hafta be in my shoes to truly understand. It's not that Yeesh is fussy can? She'[s really not that demanding. Look at LT. Those of you who have seen LT would totally know what I mean. Hahah... till today, more than a year later, I'm still trying to find out why I was so into him. He totally cannot make it larh...
Dunno why but I seem to give people the impression that I am fussy, demanding, difficult to please etc etc. In short, I'm quite a pain in the ass. Hahahh… I know. I CAN be quite a pain at times. But still, do I really appear so bad? –Innocent big deer eyes-
Okok... enough laming for the day. I've still got a quiz and a report waiting for me. When I'm slightly more free and boliaos, I will go find out why people think that about me. =P
YYY
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
YYY
Realised that my previous few posts were all pretty sad and depressing. Hahha... Made it seem as if Yishan had a really sad life. Oh wells, actually things are not that bad. I actually have pretty good weekends. Yes, even when i have to be back in school on weekends.
Anyway, this weekend, i met up with my aunts and my cuzzie. Went West Mall for dim sum =). Really glad. Got good food and shuai ge to carry my 3kg lappy. Hhahah... My cuzzie volunteered to help me carry my 3kg lappy while the women shop and he tagged along. And he never once complained larhh...So sweet. The world should really be filled with more gentlemen like him.
After stuffing ourselves with dim sum, we went to my aunt's place to stone, sleep and to chat chat while waiting for the rest of the family to reach. During this short chatting session, my aunt mentioned that she plans to buy me an mp3 player as birthday pressie!!! Yippee... Hahaha... It's always nice to get a present instead of an angpow. Think it's really nicer. =) Anyway,the rest of the family reached at 6pm and here's where the interesting part comes.
My family had dinner together and i went to play with my little cuzzie after dinner. During this short session, my little Shimone Pie promised to let my kor carry her if he helped her do something. My kor did as he was told. And after he did, she ran to my aunt and stuck to my aunt. AHahha... When my Kor asked her if he could carry her, she just said:" NO! I dun like Gaston!!!" (Side note: Gaston is the bad guy who likes Belle in Beauty and Beast. My kor is nicknamed Gaston cos Shimone Pie dun like both Gaston and my kor. =P)
Hahah... My kor can never understand why he is treated so badly by her. He doesn't bully her what. Hhahahah... And to show you how biased that little 5-year-old is, here's a story.
My kor went to dye his hair blue recently and now, it's faded to a pink. Don't ask me how. Besides that, he also uses a lot of gel to make his hair stand. And oh... Pink happens to be that silly girl's favourite colour.
Aunt: "Shimone, how come you don't like Gaston? He's been so nice to you."
Shimone:" I don't like people with pink hair."
Kor:" Then what color you like? I go color my hair that color."
Shimone:"Black."
Kor:"But Ah-shan jie jie has colored hair. She has brown and red."
Shimone:"It's okay. Ah-shan jie jie's one i like. It's nice."
At this time, my kor was liddat. (-__-)"
Me (a.k.a Ah shan jie jie): "Shimone dear, what if Ah Shan jie jie go change my hair color to pink?"
Shimone:"It's okay for girls to have pink hair. I just don't like boys with pink hair."
Now my kor is like that. (-___-)"""
At the same time, Shimone changed from being carried by my aunt to being carried by Samuel, my dearie gentlemenly cuzzie. And so my kor refuses to give up and tries again.
Kor:"Shimone, what if samuel kor kor changes his hair color to pink? Samuel kor kor also a boy right?"
This time around, Shimone took a while. In her little mind, she knew she HAD to get out of this situation. She dunch want to let my kor bao bao her. So this is what she said.
Shimone:"It's okay if it's samuel kor kor. I don't like boys with pink standing pink standing up hair." (samuel doesn't gel his hair. can't be bothered)
My kor --> (-___-)"""""""""
Hahahha... my kor 不死心 also cannot. She's simply biased.
It always nice to spend my weekends with them. Good food, great fun. =)
YYY
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Why must my happiness be associated with a ?
Spoke to my babe and dear a few days back. Was talking about happiness and me.
I've always wondered. Did God actually plan for happiness to be part of my life? I have absolutely no clue. All I know is that even if He didn't, it's for my own good. This I do not doubt. But i also know that if He didn't, there's a lot more pain coming my way. How will i handle these? Will i have the courage to go through all the pain and trials He prepared for me?
It's so scary thinking about it. I do not doubt that He's got something great for me at the end of this journey. But i can't see it now and that's what scares me. All i can see right now is this journey and all i want to do now is to make this journey as comfortable as possible. I know this is silly but i really can't help it but think this way.
I'm sure you guys know what i mean. I bet you guys have been through the same thing haven't you? Haven't you done once done something you know is wrong because it's the easier way out? Well, that's what i feel like doing now. I feel like taking the easy way out.
BUT I KNOW I CAN'T!!!
YYY
